fevah fevah

i have a fever.

it's no fun.

i took a three hour nap today and i'm still tired. humm.

i realized today that i have a number of ambitions.

1. to acquire a new moleskin journal and a ballpoint pen

2. to actually carve out time to utilize those things

3. to visit some sweet coffeeshops/bookstores in the course of the next couple weeks

4. to somehow acquire an australian accent (thank you brooke fraser)

5. to learn all the pentatonic scales necessary to even brush the shores of being somewhat like john mayer

6. to be okay with not being okay

7. to actually become accustomed to getting my things done

8. to write more. in my journal. on my guitar. in the form of music, notes, and songs.

which might all very well seem to be the same thing. but in my mind, there lie significant differences.

i want to change the world, or maybe a tiny part of it, with the music god channels through me.

i want to change the way i perceive people. i don't want to judge them in the way i always have. i don't want to feel judged when i put my thoughts out on the line.

i stopped and wondered today,

what would the world be like, if everyone acted in the way God intended them to?

would it be robotic? or would love overcome all?

what is the purpose of pain and doubt?

i like to wonder.